First Day.

Let me start by saying that I know I've been posting an absurd amount of blogs, trust me it will stop soon. My first day was...eh. Only 179 days of school until summer break. And then my life begins again.

It's never been this hard for me to go back to normal, I usually just kinda go back into school mode, but this year I miss my friends so much, and I miss being able to lay around the house and read for 12 hours straight, and I miss not waking up until the sun was already, and most of all, I miss spending all day doing the one thing I love more than anything else.

The only thing keeping me sane right now are my books, I've done nothing but read for 3 days now. I hate this feeling, this....weird feeling. That I'm just kind of in a daze, going through the motions as some would say. I hate my classes. I don't see many of my friends. And most of all, I miss everyone so much that it's almost physically painful. I don't know why this has been so hard. I just wish I could get back into the groove of things.

I have French first block, I'm gonna be asleep all the time. I have Yearbook second, it's cool. I have AP US History third, it's gonna kill me. And I have Trig fourth, which I like pretty well so far, maybe its because I like math so much. I don't know.

And I've noticed now, in the beginning of my Junior year, I've never been so eager to go to college. I was scared last year, last month even, but now I can't wait to go out and see what there really is out there for me. And I've heard so many great things about college, I wanna leave so bad, it's killing me!

If you have my cell number, call me. I need some contact from the outside world. This bubble of Beckley is killing me softly.

-Sam <3