I have realized.

Something horrible happened to my friend today. And I've been totally (excuse this) shitty to them for the past forever, but when I found out every frustration, annoyance, everything completely disappeared. 

And there was never any real reason for me to be horrible to them for so long, and I guess I knew it all along, but it took something like this to help me realize just how horrible of a person I am.

Now I'm trying. Trying to help. Trying to be a good friend. Trying to be a good person. Everything.

And to that person, I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve it. And I want you to be ok.

Don't take people for granted, you don't know how long you have.